I had refrained from posting until I felt the desire and/or motivation to do so, but I’m happy to say it’s coming back. š
The end of December began what is arguably the most stressful and hurt-filled period of my life since losing my mom to cancer 5 years ago. This recent situation bore similarities to the loss of my mom in that the grieving and pain began long before the eventual loss — with many high and lows in between. Still…you’re never quite prepared for the final blow.
I’m frustrated, sad, amazed and shaken a bit, but I’m maintaining and improving daily, apart from the occasional… “is this really happening..?” I’m ever the optimist, so although things maybe weren’t fabulous between us, I’d been hopeful that dedication, effort and time would eventually bring us closer and more united. Unfortunately, I am only in control of one person’s feelings and actions…mine.
The biggest loser in this is my son, but he has two very caring and concerned parents who will see to it that he’s given loads of love, attention and support.
So there ya have it folks…wish I had a different and less “heavy” reason for not being around lately, but not this time. My absence from the blog and the game has not been out of avoidance…I have been checking in once in awhile, responding to the occasional comment or post, as well I’ve recently started to blow off some steam in BGs and so forth. I’ve stayed away due to the need to focus on other much more important time investments, in addition to getting my emotional well-being in check. I’m still cycling through varying emotions, but my extreme sense of loss, heartbreak and frustration has since passed. I know it’s not over, but I can at least manage it now.
Anyway, I’m ready to talk about hunters again. š
Damn Garwolf…
sounds just like my story.. we have 3 kids though.
But it helped me alot to catch the ex in a lie, kind of removed my sadness for the wrongs I did… just don’t seem wrong anymore*LOL*
Sorry I’m a little late on this Gar, but I’m sorry to hear you’re going through a rough time. Wish there was more that I could do than just post about it! Next time I’m headed to SoCal I’ll have to detour and grab ya a beer.
I’m walking down that same path right now. I am glad you were able to emerge from it. I too have a son that is my world and my greatest fears and concerns lie with him regarding everything that is yet to be. For at the moment he does not now what is coming. Take care.
I won’t say I’ve emerged from it, but rather am emerging…slowly.
Best of luck to you. š
It’s good to have you back, I hope this makes you stronger than before. I hope your child will understand and everything goes well.
Thank you, Antkibo.
Gar, there will come a day when you realize that you son is not loosing a mom and dad who are living in one place, but he’s GAINING a Mom and Dad who are happy in their own skin. That is a far more empowering example of fatherhood than continuing to live a half life.
Hugs and strength,
Niika
Thanks, Niika. Very nicely put and very true. Looking on the bright side, I am spending much more “quality time” with my son since this recent development.
I hope that your days are filled with inspiring and and uplifting moments to get you through Gar. Many *digital hugs* going your way <3
Thank you for doing a fabulous job on Huntsman Lodge – your wise thoughts and kindness in sharing them are very appreciated š
Thank you, Ancksanura. š I appreciate the hugs.
Loss and sadness. There was a time I thought I would drown in it. It faded slowly, and now only comes back when I hear it in others. At the time it felt like it had, and would, last forever.
But it’s always temporary.
Thanks for the pic…great looking young man you have there!
I know, right..! His extreme handsomeness never ceases to amaze me. š
I’m just a random internet stranger too, but I hope things work out for the best for your son and for you. In the end, you will be stronger.
“That which does not kill you…”, right..?
I know that I’ll be forever different after this, but yea…I’m sure I’ll be a little stronger and see things clearer in future.
Gar, I know you have a guild in Kul Tiras to run, but Lord willing when I and my friend get back online and rejoin the Bees maybe February, try logging on to Moon Guard so we can brighten your day with TEH HAWTNESS.
/flex
Keeping you in prayers,
Substance20
Bald & Sexy Orc Hunter
Hey Gryzor. š
Yea, I’ll be appearing back on MG now and again. I’m knocking on the door of Battlemaster, so I’ve been working on trying to finish up my last few flag defenses. Once I earn that achievement I’ll probably do a little huntering horde-side.
I’ve been worried by your absence, and thought something like this might be in the works. I’m really sorry to hear about this. I’m sure all will be well, and I suspect you’ll soon be doing better than ever.
Kaz
i’m sorry for your loss,
it happend to me too, first my mom, 2 years ago, with cancer, and last year my father also with a diff. kind of cancer.
i’m still at a loss what to do with my life,
i’m living, but on the other way not living it.. only pc and my work keeps me going a bit.and if i hadn’t my 2 cats, i would probably giving up already…
been always single, and still are. (46y)… damn..
i’m living in the netherlands and rest of family (nephews and uncles) are living in spain, so family is far away for me to talk to other than the phone,
damn. i’m confessing here my whole damn live to strangers..
> damn. iām confessing here my whole damn live to strangers..
You know what? Strangers can become friends. It’s just a matter of plugging a cam, inviting someone to a Google Hangout and start chatting. I can’t share my pain because -so far- I am not anywhere close to your situations (you, Gar and others).
But I wanted to give a simple hug. Virtual, yes, but real anyways!
I’m 48 and am recently married, for the first time. It can and will happen. Take care of yourself and don’t give up, life is too precious.
Those cats need you, and there is someone out there wondering why you haven’t come into their life yet.
You’re probably right, Kaz…you’re probably right.
Thanks. š
So sorry to hear about your situation. I am currently going through the same painful process and its actually what made me start playing again. Hope everything works out for you and especially your son.
Although that situation paled in comparison to what I’m going through now, a relationship coming to a close 11 years ago is what got me into gaming. I was looking for a “fun” diversion that would be a healthier and more cost effective endeavor than going out and partying. Situations like these can be all-consuming, which is why I think games like WoW can be a healthy escape during times of extreme stress.
Thanks for the comment. You hang in there as well. š
I know this is of little comfort coming as it is from a relatively anonymous gamer in cyberland, but I would like to offer my sympathy and thoughts for you and your son. I have three wonderful children and can empathize a bit. I’ll raise a glass to you and yours and sincerely hope for a bright, if not immediately so, future for you.
Thank you, Delacour. š
Aaaaaaaand yet again my “problems” are put into perspective in a manner I wish they hadn’t been. I know from our past exchanges that not only are we close in age, but our sons are as well. Take care of yourself. Take care of your little man. Look for reasons to smile, don’t avoid them. And since your’re a hearty hunter, I’d suggest you respec……TO SURVIVAL!!!!
Hang in there, bro!
Hey Lawman. š
Yea, I’ve been tweaking and perfecting my Survival build. In fact, I made it an off-spec last year. š “Hope for the best, but prepare for the worst”… that was my motto last year.
Sorry to hear this Garwulf, but thank you for sharing. Hang in there!
Hugs!
I’m hanging in there. š
I’m sorry to hear of your situation. I hope things get better. Time heals all wounds. Thank you for sharing that beautiful picture. It’s a reminder of what is truly importan in life.
Thanks for your concern, and yes…time does heal all wounds. Down the road I’m sure we’ll all be better off, even though I’m having difficulty seeing things as such right now. My little guy is my main concern, so if he’s alright…I’m alright. When he gets a bit sad over things or suggests it’s about time for me to come home…that’s tough.
I’m sorry for your loss, but welcome back!
Thanks, wilbo.